Oct 8,1997                               
MUTATION CODE
  I'm self modifying
1:30 am
    --- I cleaned up my room today. It wasn't easy. I have this very interesting computer in the middle of my room that has all sorts of fun time wasting activities built into it. I think I spent 10 minutes reading an instruction manual during the stage in which I picked up all the books. Picking up books can take a long time, too, because I keep finding interesting books and reading a few pages.

    While cleaning up, I found a note from my Dad giving me instructions to his house, from when I first arrived in Seattle. "It should be a really easy number to remember because it's simply my house number plus 1,999, times 100, plus my street name. Plus six. I guess the six is the hard part."

    I also found some other notes to myself which aren't very coherent at all:

    Wandering through life, shutdown shutdown, turning away from the things that cause you pain.
    When you think you've steeled yourself enough to face them again, you turn back and there's nothing.
    No pain, no nothing. It's a pamphlet that doesn't say what you thought it would. you drop it and turn away again,
    but this time you have less. After enough of this you find you have gone flat overnight.

    Must've been a long night.

  Slow Thinkers
    --- Tonight as I sat around with Kris, Julie, and Kyle (roommate in Julie's house), they were discussing CDs. I wasn't saying anything, because I don't say much anyway. But today I was especially just watching the conversation take place. Someone would say something... then one of the other people would try and relate to it somehow, either restating what the first person just said in some fashion, or telling a relevant story with the same point. I wonder what the purpose of this is. Is it to show understanding? I guess you have to comprehend what someone is saying in order to paraphrase it. Is it to draw attention towards yourself because you're talking? Some people like being the center of attention. I think it can be for both things, but not always. When people are talking to me, and I'm doing all that murmuring of "Yeah" and "hmm", it's to show that I'm listening. If I didn't make little response noises, I dunno what normal people would do. It made my Mom flip out when I didn't actively respond.

    At one point, the discussion was centered around a certain 6 song CD:

    J: "It's so short. I put it on, next thing I know it's finished!"
    Ky: "Yeah. It's only ten minutes long."
    Kr: "Ten minutes? There must only be, like, three songs!"
    Ky: "It's got six songs on it."
    Kr: "And it's only ten minutes?"
    Ky: "Yeah."

    At this point, everything seemed to start moving in slow motion.

    Kr: "They must be short songs."

    Why? Why did somebody have to say that out loud? At that point I almost asked. I also almost involuntarily said "duhhhhh." It's one of those conversational inevitabilities that you see coming from ten miles away, and you wonder who's gonna be talky enough to actually say something that obvious out loud. See, Brian does it all the time (especially during movies. "Wow, he jumped off the cliff! Ohhh, it's really far down!"), but this time it was Kris, which is a little uncommon. Then again, they were all incredibly stoned.

    In our little group, a lot of jokes get told in which you can see the punchline coming from real far off. Like a ball off mud flying through the air in slow motion. Then it splats against your head. Splerrrrrrcch.

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